Triptykon, 1349 and Yakuza

I will be at the Triptykon, 1349, Yakuza show at Slims on the 23rd in San Francisco.  Come say hello!


Film Critter

Original rough sketch

Horror Director Drew Daywalt will direct the short and FX Film master Jeff Farley is bring my original design to life.  Looking forward to seeing this guy crawling around. 


Tatuaz Magazine Interview

Tatuaz Magazine is now out and available. You can go to http://www.tatuaz.net/_england/home.html for more info. They did a great, in depth interview and besides the occasional language barrier, I think Peter asked some very thought provoking questions.



Hello Horror fans! At this point I can make one, but only one announcement of several projects of interest especially to you.
I am currently working with Drew Daywalt and his DAYWALT FEAR FACTORY on a film short. VERY excited to be working with him.


"An Abominable Fancy"

The latest version of my manuscript has been returned to me so now it is in my hands again to reshape.


Hardcover Portfolio Book

In the works "Plasma Press" will have the first in a series of Hardcover portfolio books.  Starting from the latest "Flesh and Blood" series, the book will cover more than just the paint, blood and flesh that went into the work.  Release date still unknown but anticipated to be within the month.


ARTsync Magazine

The wonderful and dare I say courageous folk at ARTsync Magazine are doing a feature on "Carnivora" a book I was asked to contribute to by Les Barany.  Going to print now. Includes a full page spread on "Funeral Carriage."


"An Abominable Fancy"

I have just put up the first entry on the "An Abominable Fancy" blog.  Much like this format, I will document the preparation and progress of my autobiography written with best selling author William Maltese and published through MLR/PIP Press.  Check it out at http://aafbook.blogspot.com/



Thanks to Les Barany and his Giger Army, I will be featured with a HUGE spread in the next issue of Tatuaz out of Poland.  One of the best tat mags in the world.  Release date in July.


Urban Scrawl 003: Books

Art critic Shana Nys Dambrot has included my "Flesh and Blood" installation in her latest Urban Scrawl art blog.  She not only wrote about "Flesh and Blood" but embraced and made the work her own.  Perfect.  I could not have asked for a better interaction with the work.


"Blood of Heroes"

This is my new favorite CD.  Lovely, in a thrash post industrial way..........."Blood of Heroes"


"Fire Mass" Magazine

"Fire Mass" Magazine now on sale

I am in the first issue of Fire Mass Magazine by Spiritcage along with Clive Barker, Chet Zar, Drew Daywalt and many others.  Go here to order a copy.


"Flesh and Blood" Shots

Some great shots of the show from Kevin Riepl, music man extraordinaire at Flicker go Here 


Rhythm and Hues Studios

Just wanted to say "Hello" to my followers at Rhythm and Hues Studios! 


After all the work that went into the installation work it all comes down now.  If anyone is interested in the scape metal from the installation, contact Bert Green at http://www.bgfa.us/.


Draw Exhibition

I will be part of the ongoing DRAW touring exhibition at the Museo de la Ciudad de Mexico in Mexico City from June - July 2010. DRAW which features such artists as Alex Grey, HR Giger, Clive Barker, Richard Serra, and David Byrne curated by Erik Foss of Fuse Gallery in New York City in conjunction with Curse Mackey. The show began touring in 2006.

This will be the first time I have ever shown a drawing.   DRAW exhibition will be at the museum in Mexico and will continue with the tour afterwards.


Last Week

We are now into the last week of "Flesh and Blood" at Bert Green Fine Art in Downtown Los Angeles.  The last chance to tear out and keep a page or two from my personal journals that I have kept for the last 15 years.

Help me destroy.



Although this is still in the "wet paint" stage, I have a fabulous co-author and publishing company for my autobiography.  More information as things develop.



I was invited to partisapate in Draw through Fuse gallery in New York. in Draw through Fuse gallery in New York.

Go to the Fuse website for more info: http://www.fusegallerynyc.com/DrawTour/tour.html


Disdeinen Interview

Bart Adrian at disdeinen.net interviewed me in relation to "Flesh and Blood."  Check it out at http://www.disdeinen.net/.


More "Flesh and Blood"

My agent Les Barany hooked me up with a friend of his who also happens to be a world class photographer.  Robin Perine took this and other shots I will be adding in the near future.  Check her out.


Adjusting to Normal

I have to tell you I miss having my blood drawn every week and the pain from scraping my body to fill little vials.  My blood inlets have stop itching and my arms and legs are almost totally healed except for the permanent scars I will wear as a reminder of this period.

It did however, created a connection to my body that I have never known before.  A feeling far beyond anything I got from the gyms.

And yes, I know what this sounds like.  It is not.


Makes You Think......

Just received this in an email from my gallery, Bert Green Fine Art.
"A woman came into the gallery with a friend today, made their way back to the table, and the very first book she picked up from the table, which was open, as she tore out the page, noticed among the lines here own name."



Seems I have a few visitors from Wired Magazine's Underwire blog by Hugh Hart.

I welcome you to view beyond the sensational aspects and see the installation work as one component of the overall series that is "Flesh and Blood."

The human form made of the blood and flesh are secondary and witness to the destruction of my journals.  The viewers participation in their destruction is much more meaningful and powerful than the self sacrifice that was needed for the piece.

I also invite you to view the series in it's totality at Bert Green Fine Art at http://www.bgfa.us/.  There you will find the entire "Flesh and Blood" collection of paintings.

The work was very personal and painful far beyond the physical aspects of preparation.  I hope you take the time to look.



Parts of My Life Torn Out Page by Page

Blood Easy

I thought this was pertainant to the the appreciation of the installation work "Flesh and Blood."


Post Opening

I want to thank everyone that came out for the opening Wednesday and for the ArtWalk Thursday.  It was wonderful meeting you all and I hope you enjoy having a small piece of me, namely a page or two from my journals.

The show came together right on time and the installation work was exactly as I first sketched it.  I could not be more pleased.
The show will be up until April 25th.  If you grab a page from my journals I would love to hear about it.  Email me at jua@johnua.com.


Final Week

Now going into the final week before the show not much left to do.  All the artwork except 3 works which I will be bringing with me have been shipped to the gallery.  Really all that is left is one last blood letting which will finish the prepatory work for the installation piece. I have gone through each and every journal you, my dear viewers, will be tearing apart. One last visit to the person I was before he is committed to the ashes.

I am ready for the conclusion of this series.

Show time.

*(As a side note: To those that will be at the opening, please keep in mind that upon opening night, I will more than likely have worked until dawn completing the installation work the night before and I will be a quart or two low blood wise.)


ImagineFX Issue #55

Confirmed!  I will be featured in issue 55 of ImagineFX magazine due out around the end of March in the US and other countries, March 9th in the UK.



A proper scan of "Scribe", oils on gessoed print paper, "22.5X25", 2010 now available at Bert Green Fine Art, http://www.bgfa.us/


A Pound of Flesh

Shipping this week.

Still waiting to see if it is safe (relatively) to draw more blood.

Working on harvesting flesh in larger amounts.  I have had to get more creative with the flesh harvesting since I have exhausted most of my easy takes.  Now on to more vulnerable areas.  Have to wear long sleeve shirts and long pants which is not a problem since it is still cool weather.  Makes you very aware of your outer shell when almost all of it catches on cloths. Like having velcro for skin or having rope burns over 3/4 of your body.  Showers are are a lot of fun right now.



Since I have been advised by my med team to halt the blood letting for now, I turn to harvesting flesh, and watching Lawrence of Arabia


"Scribe" Working Title

Just finished this one last night (this morning 2:00 am-ish).  The working title is "Scribe" but subject to change.  Oils on gessoed print paper, "22X15" 2010


One year's work is now over.  Just finished the last painting of the "Flesh and Blood" series.

Always strange to finish a series.  You know you will never live in that world again.  Maybe something close but not the same.  It was you for a moment in time and then you move on.  You grow or die or find new inspiration but you are never that point in your life again.

Little deaths.


Last Night

We lost track of the number of syringes so we drew allot more blood than intended.  Luckily I brought extra vials.  130 vials, good haul! 



You have no idea how long it takes to fill just one little vial with flesh.  I only have about 60 more to go before I reach goal.  26 days before I take off for LA.  Packing up as I go.  One of these nights I have to go over all the journals, all 6,600 pages.  One last look before they are all destroyed.


Tonights Draw

We are upping the amount of blood we draw each session and doing double sessions each week.  That makes 500cc taken each week until March.


Packing It All Up

Final days.  Stringing all the vials with monofilament and packing then up for LA.



Tools of the trade, all ready to harvest flesh.


"Desecrated Angel"

"Desecrated Angel" has sold. 


More Blood

Four more weeks to wrap this up.  One painting in studio, more flesh and much more blood needed, going to be tight. 

Stringing 1000 vials, packing everything up, shipping and then set up down in LA.  After that I do believe I will try and enjoy a full night of 8 hours sleep for the first time in almost a year the night before the show.  That is if I am not pulling an all nighter due to the installation and how quickly or slowly it goes together.  I cannot wait to see it all together for the first time. 


ImagineFX Issue 55

Looks like the feature of my work in ImagineFX will be in issue 55, on sale in the UK 9 March instead of 54.  Looking forward to the spread though!


I have been working with an unbelievably creative group from Bucharest, Romania in conjunction with "Flesh and Blood."  They have put together a soundtrack that creates in sound what I am trying to do with paint.  I will be featuring their work on the night of the opening.  They have been sending samples over the last 6 months or so but the latest sample is breath taking in it's portrayal of my work.  Color me spent from listening!  I can't wait to share!


Too tired.

The last painting is sketched and awaiting paint.  Working title "Baggage."  Harvest flesh instead.  My blood guy got sick so missed Monday's blood letting.  Only means I will have to play catch up, increase the number of lettings or shorten the amount of time in between them.  Whatever it takes.  I first thought that I would need about 200 vials to make my "bottle man."  Once I figured the cubic inches of an average human body and translated that to vials with allowance for the space between it came to more like 1000 vials.  That is a little bit of a difference.  There is the addition of the vials of flesh but due to the laborious and VEERRRRYY slow nature of collecting skin I will probably only have about 100 vials of flesh compared to about 900 vials of blood.  Then I will have to string them and pack them for shipment to LA.  The day before the opening will be the first day all the components will be assembled together: 900 vials of blood, 100 vials of flesh, 30-220 pg journals and a whole lot of steel and wood.  Still looking for someone to film the installation work.  Love to have them shoot the assemblage as well.



More blood work on Monday.  One of about 6 more.  If I am able.

Cliteral Smile is Now Sold

One of the first works in the series, now sold. Sorry.


"Pin Cushion"

Just got this back from the Damned Show so I was able to rework it a bit.  Not a proper scan.


"As a Lamb to Slaughter"

Yeah, I know what I said, I have to do some detailing so it is still a work in progress but I wanted to show what I was working on.


The Last Two Months

With about a month and a half before show date I sit here in my studio thinking over the last few things to accomplish before then.

It is a strange place.

After almost a full year of sacrifice from not only myself but from all those around me I have hopefully poured everything I have into this body of work.  It has draining me to the point of compromised health and questionable sanity.  My family has been unbelievably supportive in light of all this. 

The strangness of place I mention though is that moment........that moment that you feel all the promise of the next painting and the wonder of where the work will take you next slowly disapate and you then ready yourself for the final performance.  The one night when you place your year long labors, your reputation and yourself up for review. 

That night.    

There is always that one night when you line all the work up from the last year and ponder what you could have done better, clearer or more eloquently.  This time, however, I will be going through all my journals that will be destroyed.  Between all the rants and raves of my journals are every moment that was tender, horrific or lovely.  Every moment of life, death, birth, gain and loss will be wiped away forever.  I would lie if I said I did not struggle with the decision to destroy all the work for the last 15 years.  But in the end it was what needed to be.

So before the opening, before all the work is done, before the final stroke is applied, I think of what has transpired and what is to come.  One never knows.


Sometimes it Happens

when using an 18 gauge needle for drawing blood.



As promised, during tonights blood draws I took along my handy little pocket camera.  Not the best of shots but gives you an idea of how we get the blood.


Blog without Blogging

We are now down to the wire.  58 days until opening.  One more painting to go, some finish up and allot more blood and flesh to harvest. During this last year of work this blog has been mostly short snippets of information and photos.  Now that we are rounding the last turn I thought it appropriate to actually start blogging.  So without further ado....

The journey has been long and fraught with problems.   Because of my situation which I do not care to elaborate upon here and now, I must start painting at 10:00 to 11:00 pm at night and work until whenever.  Then get up at 8:00 am.  Lack of sleep has taken it's collective toll.  I have aged, tattooed baggage under the eyes, and due to outside influences some of the most stressful times I have ever known.  The work has had kind of a reverse Dorian Grey effect on me as well.  Or more to the point, I have become my work.  Regardless, even if a regular schedule of 3 to 4 hours of sleep a night was the cost I was determined to create.

The creation of the installation work "Flesh and Blood" has taken on a whole live of it's own.  Over the past 6 months or so it was an interesting, frustrating and in the end very heart warming process due to the extremely generous donation of the time and talents of several individuals.  When I began this little misadventure I was not totally confident that I would be able to pull it off.  I mean, the amount of blood it would take to complete the piece seemed prohibitive.  Luckily I found the someone who saw what I was trying to accomplish and also possessed the talent and ability to draw the amount of blood we needed.  We are still working on it by the by.  I go back in tomorrow and will document more of the process for you all to see and will post tomorrow night if I am not too faint.  The resulting work I believe will be worth ever drop of blood spilt or bit of flesh I took from my body.  Oh yeah, the flesh part.  A few have enquired as to the process involved in harvesting flesh.  First and foremost, it is my flesh and nothing but.  The process is laborious and painful if I am not careful.  Above and beyond that I wont elaborate.
I look forward to getting all the various pieces together in Los Angeles.

The work has been hard on me as the aforementioned has stated.  It has also cut closer to the bone than any of my previous work and I cannot say I liked what I saw.  Though the journey has brought me to a place I have not been in a long time I think it has taken more than just the blood and flesh out of me.  Regardless of how the work will be recieved, it is my child and will soon be time to send it into the world.    


"As a Lamb to Slaughter"

I know this wont mean anything to anyone but for the first time I feel pity for one of my creations.  Pity and sorrow.


"At the Altar of Needles"

If you were thinking of purchasing "At the Altar of Needles" it just sold this weekend. 

Lamb to Slaughter

I just finished the first day of  "As a Lamb to Slaughter."   I had no idea when I sketched it just how prophetic it would come to be.


In an unconcerned manner - unaware of any impending catastrophe.